I just went through some old photos of myself from middle school and early high school and, yes, back then I was way thinner than I am today but at the same time, it’s crazy how much I hated myself. I felt so disgusting and fat when I was not, now when I look at those pictures I think i was really pretty and that I lost a lot of time hating myself.
Yes i’ve gained weight that I want to lose now (because now I feel ready to take off this shell that i’ve built to protect myself through these years, I’m ready to be myslef, to be healthy and happy because, to me it’s the only way that I want to live my life) but I’ve also won a lot of confidence and self love. I’m not saying that i am fully in love with myself cause I’m not but I’m definitely on my way and closer than I was years ago. Now I know that I love who I am and I am proud of the girl i’ve become. And to me, this, is way more important than some numbers on a scale or the size of my pants.
If one day you feel so awful that you want to take your life away, i want you to remember that you are more than your life, you are more than how you feel and more than even yourself. You are in everything and everything is in you. I want you to remember that everything you do, everything you say has an impact around you, even the smallest one. You are important. You are bigger than your mind, you matter way more than you think. Dont ever forget that.
think of a new life
don’t get l o s t in your memories
keep your eyes on a new prize